kudos to me

i really messed things up now didn't i?

wow.

my stupid mouth.

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siigggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

nervousss,

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nerbousosssooosossosososos.


nervousssss.


ahdhhsdhalsdididf.

poop.

this feels like popopopopopop.
i need some meds.
ahhh nervous.
i need to get undressed,
my clothes are eating me. ahdsldhskldiodsdfvocvoijcogsort
sdjfksdfsd
mamamamamamama miaa! meatballs for your face.
i need a oii.
gimme some more.
our love wont survive.
dont speak a word.
dont speak to me.
dont speak to mee.
yeeeeeeeaaaaahhh.
'theres a lot that you dont notice. when you read between the lines. the futures out of focus when youre blidided by the light, its a hope for all the hopers ,in the wors of trying times, i resort to being speechleess,
cause our love wont surviiiveee.


--janiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.

just a little taste of our talent show,

so you can get an idea :)



Shelf- JDoubleRS

Me LLamo Juan:) | MySpace Video



p.s. i'm in the back :P but no one cares.
my best friend's the singer,&my other friend's the guitar person, and ricky's the drummer, he's my friend too... oh dammit, theyre all my friends. except maybe shane. ahahah

you like things weird,
just like i'd think,
i can never talk to you
and predict,
every things a mystery with you dear,
yet it's simple and clear,
the sky should be blue,
whenever we're two,
but i'm alone and everything's gone/

you think home is cheesy,
so i guess i cant show you this song,
geez, you're something to see,
i feel like jumping
just writing about you,
i could write all day.

i need you,
it's sad,
i dont wish it wasnt true,
but i just wish you needed me

you'll be great,
just don't let the fame go to your head,
dont give up on love,
have faith;restart.

that's what i'm doing too.

if you ever feel alone,
i know i wont be able to make it go away,
i'm not the one you need to stay,.

i wish i could've shown you minnesota.
and been to iowa.

You could be my prom date,
but i think you wouldnt be happy with that,
i cant even pretend you're mine,
not even for a day.

You're my best friend.
i dont lie.

so believe me when i say,

that i won't forget about you.

After all,
when i was singing that Home song,
all i was thinking about was
well..,it doesnt even matter.
i think you get the point.

I love you.

-Jani.

no more will you cryy..,

baby i will let you never.

;) man, whoever the Bee Gees wrote that for is a very lucky ladyy.

cough,cough hoeface.

so anyways,
the talent show was Fridayyy :D
i swear i now enjoy performing.
i've performed with choir before but performing alone is nothing like it.
it's....more free. &even though i messed up, i had FUN :D

and i was technically part of juanface's cool band thing. :P
i just wish someone had taken a picture or two, cause i bet we all loooked happy :)


&that's cause we were :D(especially the boys cause they got panties thrown at 'em) ;D



now i know what i wanna be in life, a pantie performer! which is why theatre is a good choice.who knows, maybe they even have us play a french person XD WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ;DDDDDD


tre tre mucho love,janii >;D

money makes the world go around

money money money money money money money,

God i loved the Lopez Fine Arts Festival

with all of my heart. free people too :D

i think i'm going to join theatre now :D

haha,

good luck with that future me x)

anywhooo, i feel like i havent blogged lately.

and it's not like i've been busy right?

right :)

so lately i've been feeling kind of crappso.

i was thinking that,

maybe i'm not good at anything,

since my best friend hasn't really ever liked anything i've done.

of the limited things i've done.

&i guess she doesnt have to,

but i just wonder why.

hopefully i do something coolish,

at least once.

i wouldnt care so much if it was anyone else,

anywhooo,

i applied to LookBook....AGAIN (:

maybe they'd accept me if i sent them a virtual cake.

hahaha x)

though i doubt they like to eat.

ew,

this blog isnt interesting.

adioosss,

---jani :D

you're like a dream,

a dream come true.

:)

i'm happy today.

and yesterday.

thank you,

for at least giving me those two days.

&please help my french friend,

she needs some anti-stupid pills for her man.

lovee,

--janiii (:

Drugs are stupid. They just are, ok? Don't do them. Alcohol,well i'm pretty sure your life won't be as messed up from it as like crack or meth. Stuff of that sort. Before i guess i didnt really think about it much, but now i think that drugs are just life destroyers. Trust me. I've seen it happen. People act different when they take drugs. So different they're not even your friends anymore. They belong to their drug. I sound very melodramatic, but it's true. Don't ever do drugs. Ever. Please.
You'll lose all your real friends.

--love,janii.

nobody said it was easyyy..,

so i think Brenda's mad at me.

ha.

i barely realized it right now.

cause what happened is that we hid from her in my house., and i was waiting for her to give up,

but she just left.

darntt.

sometimes people don't think the things i think that are funny are funny.

happens a lot.

well Brenda, i love you.even when youre mad. i'm publicly annoucing it. muahaha,now the whole world knowss (:

love,..jani :)

if the flowers could get me you.,